dear akid part 3

it has come to a point, where words can’t describe how you feel towards a person, actions come into play. i am in awe of your actions, your choices, your efforts and your dedication every single day in making me feel loved. you own that warmth in you that never fail to make me feel like i’m hone

oh akid, if only you knew how badly i would want this to be a one way trip home. to continuously prove to you that i am deserving of you of your love and your time. i would want to prove to you that a love like this, isn’t just going to be temporary but to lengths where you’ll feel it in between your bones and your aching nerves. that a relationship between two souls can be gentle and kind, pure and raw, unconditional and effortless. but on days where i want to give you my all and make you feel so much, a part of me will question. am i deserving of you and do i ever deserve your efforts you have done for me. based on all the things you have done for me, no thank you no sorry can ever top off

i never once wanted you to feel like you don’t deserve a love so special a relationship so effortlessly graceful a girlfriend who loves you unconditionally

every second of the day i just want to care, for you

and every second of the day too, i feel like i have failed

remember the moment in the train to the airport? you confessed saying you love me, but i didn’t equally said it back. instead i told you i care for you. infact i did i do and i will continuously care for you. if that is how i prove my love towards you, then i would wanna care for you in every language in every piece of action ever made

to put you to sleep huddle in my warmth presence, whip you up a meal for every meal slots during the day just so you won’t get hungry and ensure you’re always in your best condition in every way possible